Left In, Out

Left In, Out

by Maureen Ucles

Left in,

Left out

makes me wanna

scream

yeah you got it

just wanna

shout

out loud

AAAAHHHHH!

Makes no sense

not in the least

these decisions

 left in

 mostly, 

mostly... out

Why me?

What have I done?

Left it all on the floor

blood, sweat and tears

but...

but do you care?

not in the least

no time

can't find a crease

in which to fall

tumbling down

like John Cougar Mellancamp

so far

 descending

into the depths

Left in,

Left out,

abandoned
on this barren black top

baking in the cruel Sun

unforgiving
relentless
you won't stop

leave

my thoughts alone

on my last nerve

but why?

What have I done?

Like my dad 

always said

Work hard

put it all out there

things will fall 
into place

not this time

nah

slap in my face

spittle to replace

my feelings, pride, dignity

can't understand

stupid

idiotic

insipid

hideous
heinous
crime scene

Left in...left out
I need to
 let go

forge a new path

I'm
 toast

burnt to a crisp

left in...thrown out

keep quiet

SHHH!

Not a word

rock this boat
Me?
Ima
Scapegoat extraordinaire
nobody

But...

Not givin' in
nunca
jamas

about to

rise above

snatch 

 rebound

two hands

take it up strong

slam dunk

in your face
POSTERIZED!
as I
run down the court
Look ahead
No problem
 Like Old Man Riverwalk
Timmy Duncan
All business
 I master
the disguise
hidden
maybe a little wise
Truth be told
Can't stand to look at you
The utter sight
brings chills down my spine
stomach churns
You're
a polar vortex
frigid
and...
not worth
my time
thoughts
nada

Gonna

flee
this tired, sorry scene
evacuate
confiscate
then
librarme
de este

  stinkin'
disturbance
currently

downgraded from
category five
to a 

tropical wave
or posiblemente
not a cloud
in the bluest
skies
Why?

I'm

gone

steppin'
moving forward
got my momentum
groove's on

No looking back 

Left in?

You kidding me, right?

I'm out!
Hasta la vista!
Adios!

Bye-bye!
Out of here!
See ya!