Left In, Left Out! Revisited

I wrote a poem called Left In, Left Out sometime last year. It is great to go back and see what I was thinking and feeling. At that time last year, I experienced complete frustration and disillusionment. There were many things pulling at me and I  tried to make sense of it through my poetry. Boy, what a difference a year makes! Thank God Almighty, I have been set free! I tried to take my poem from last year and revise it, based on time and its ability to heal all wounds. Here's my poor attempt at doing that! Writing is so cathartic.

Left In, Out-Gone!

by Maureen Ucles

Left in,

Left out
Year later
found my place

made me wanna

scream
now

a whisper
Can you hear me
now?
You?
Don't really care
anymore
in the least
have

time to chill
learning how
peace

Makes no sense

not in the least

these decisions

 left in

 mostly, 

mostly... out
But it's okay
as I peer into
my present
without ya
 another place
feels safe
staying here

Why me?

What had I done?

Left it all on the floor

but...

don't care anymore
you're removed
by
smiling faces
appreciations
brilliant minds

Left in...left out
 gone
 let go

forged a new path
for me

with others

Left this
 tired, 

sorry
 scene
evacuated

gone

moving forward
my momentum
wind at my back
Like Stella,
got my groove 

Left in?

I'm out!
Adios!

Bye-bye!

Not to be continued,