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Words of Freedom-Soy libre

Not to worry, I will add the accents tomorrow. I just wanted to get it out tonight. Blogspot doesn't allow for accents in Spanish.  Disculpe por ahora.

Words of Freedom-Soy Libre

by Maureen Ucles

I can

post what I want

say what I want

expresarme

I can 

let the words fly

off of the page

from my thoughts

pensamientos

locked deep inside

waiting to be released

to be expresada

I can

write what I want

be who I want

not considering you 

anymore

not in the least

I can 

be free 

how I want

no holding back

letting go 

freedom rings

in my ears

en mi corazon

en mi alma

Yo puedo

expresarme

para librarme

demonstrarte

quien soy

Yo puedo volar

alcanzar mis suenos

mis deseos

que tengo dentro

mi espirtu

no voy 

a quedar callada

no mas

no voy a

escuchar sus palabras negativas

no mas

me quedo

feliz y libre

para expresarme

and be me

that I was meant to be

YA

Left In, Out

Left In, Out

by Maureen Ucles

Left in,

Left out

makes me wanna

scream

yeah you got it

just wanna

shout

out loud

AAAAHHHHH!

Makes no sense

not in the least

these decisions

 left in

 mostly, 

mostly... out

Why me?

What have I done?

Left it all on the floor

blood, sweat and tears

but...

but do you care?

not in the least

no time

can't find a crease

in which to fall

tumbling down

like John Cougar Mellancamp

so far

 descending

into the depths

Left in,

Left out,

abandoned
on this barren black top

baking in the cruel Sun

unforgiving
relentless
you won't stop

leave

my thoughts alone

on my last nerve

but why?

What have I done?

Like my dad 

always said

Work hard

put it all out there

things will fall 
into place

not this time

nah

slap in my face

spittle to replace

my feelings, pride, dignity

can't understand

stupid

idiotic

insipid

hideous
heinous
crime scene

Left in...left out
I need to
 let go

forge a new path

I'm
 toast

burnt to a crisp

left in...thrown out

keep quiet

SHHH!

Not a word

rock this boat
Me?
Ima
Scapegoat extraordinaire
nobody

But...

Not givin' in
nunca
jamas

about to

rise above

snatch 

 rebound

two hands

take it up strong

slam dunk

in your face
POSTERIZED!
as I
run down the court
Look ahead
No problem
 Like Old Man Riverwalk
Timmy Duncan
All business
 I master
the disguise
hidden
maybe a little wise
Truth be told
Can't stand to look at you
The utter sight
brings chills down my spine
stomach churns
You're
a polar vortex
frigid
and...
not worth
my time
thoughts
nada

Gonna

flee
this tired, sorry scene
evacuate
confiscate
then
librarme
de este

  stinkin'
disturbance
currently

downgraded from
category five
to a 

tropical wave
or posiblemente
not a cloud
in the bluest
skies
Why?

I'm

gone

steppin'
moving forward
got my momentum
groove's on

No looking back 

Left in?

You kidding me, right?

I'm out!
Hasta la vista!
Adios!

Bye-bye!
Out of here!
See ya!

Lemons and Lemonade-Inspiration in Acidity

Making Lemons

by Maureen Ucles

Lemonade 

sitting by the stand

please come forth

with your acidity

ph factor

so sour, sour, sourful

Lemonade sitting in the sunlight

not too tart

not too sweet

better than Country Time

Hand made

over time

squeezed, squeezed

guts and all

juiced and filled

with zest

Lemonade, Lemonade

how many lemons are you?

Replete with a few seeds

that escaped the squeeze

ice chilling

almost ready

to freeze

while you juice

I muse

peer into...

Lemonade, Lemonade

was it worth it all?

you are gone 

spent

peels thrown in the trash

the blood, sweat and tears?

So many years

yet...

impaled

torn

breached

yet

so

sweet

Lemonade, Lemonade

can you make it here?

Can you make it there?

Does anyone ever

seem to care?

Winds blowing

Breeze showing

Me knowing...

I

like you,

making

Lemonade

Lemonade

giving it up--

releasing the fear

hey,

never know

new frontier

prancing and dancing

seeing 

through crystal prisms

 different 

views

doors, window

closed, opened

my

souls  a searching

me perching

lookin' in

Ain't no sin

Just drinking it up

my life

my lemonade

Ahhh!

Hits the spot!

Boxed Inn No More!

Boxed Inn

By Maureen Ucles

You’ve got me

Boxed in

Cornered in all directions

This place

Reeks of basement mold

Expired packaged peanuts 

and puffy, plastic pillows

Or was that your ego-

rather inflated?

Invading my brain

Contusion

So

Concussed

Withering to rust

Oxidation in

This stinking,

Stifling,

Stagnant

Boxed Inn

Where do I reside?

In your embrace?

No, more like

A chide

Cruel slap across my face

‘cause I can’t find

Anything

In this dastardly,

Dilapidated

Place

Incarcerated—

Cruel and unusual...

Torture

Banished

Ostracized

Tainted

By my original sin

Like

Adam and Eve

South of Eden

North of Nowhere

Descending

Plummeting

Into the depths

From the abyss

To abysmal

Get me outta of this

Horrible

Hellacious

Horrendous

Boxed Inn

Hotel California

Checksd in

No way out

Wanna

Gonna

Tear down

Wailing walls

Crumbling

Piece by piece

Inch by inch

Imploding

Exploding

Onto me

Boxed Inn

Metamorphosis

Reaching

Beyond reach

Grasping

Catching

A glimpse

Light eternal

Gravitating

Encapsulating

The tangible

Surreal

Peace…peace

Permeating

My being

Me, myself and I

Without you—

Outside this

Cruel confinement

Into solemn serenity

Boxed Inn

No more…

Checking out!

Boxed Inn by M Ucles

Boxed Inn

By Maureen Ucles

You've got me

Boxed In

Cornered in all directions
This place

Reeks of basement mold

Packaged peanuts and puffy plastic pillows

or was that your ego?

Inflating my brain

Contusion
Utter
Confusion
So

Concussed

Withering to rust

Oxidation in

this stinking,
stifling,
 stagnant

Boxed INN

Where do  I reside?
In your embrace?

No, more like

a chide

slap across my face

'cause I can't find

anything

in this dastardly, dilapidated

place

incarcerated --
cruel and unusual
torture

 Banished
ostracized
tainted

with my original sin
like

Adam and Eve

South of Eden
North of Nowhere
descending
into depths of darkness
abyss to abysmal
Get me outta of this

horrible,
 hellacious,
 horrendous

Boxed Inn

 Hotel California
Checking in
No way out
wanna
gonna

Tear down
 wailing walls

crumbling
piece by piece
inch by inch
imploding,
exploding
onto me
Boxed Inn
Out

 Reaching

 beyond reach

grasping

a glimpse

any spark

light eternal

the heavens

I

gravitate

 encapsulate

the tangible

surreal

peace...peace

permeates
possibly

infiltrates

my being

Me, myself and I

without you--

outside this 
cruel confinement

into solemn serenity

Boxed Inn

No more
checking out!

Numbers

Numbers

by Maureen Ucles

Eighteen 

more days

Eighteen 

more weeks

Eighteen weeks 

and two days

Or was it eighteen minutes?

Eighteen hours?

in a twenty-four hour day

Eighteen seconds?

Eighteen

Eighteen 

 the number

I contemplate

Might go irate

if I have to wait--

wait any longer

Eighteen minus two

Eighteen 'til were through

'til I am done

stick a fork in me

completely

Eighteen

Eighteen

Eighteen

Cannot 

Will not

No way

No how

Stop me

from closing

this door

this window

this cell

pad lock

want to 

block

any semblance

of you

not even

a hint

nor hue

will do

Enough said

We're 

Through

Eighteen hours

days

months

years

decades

millenniums

eternity

done

Eighteen weeks

two days

'til

I run

skip

slip

into

oblivion

catatonic state

never to be

heard

seen

again

by

you

Eighteen

Eighteen

Just eighteen

sound the horn

pull the alarm

two if by night

one if by me

You ain't got

what it takes

you lost me

 clear as day

in the night

at...

never had me

no completion

just an utter

act of deletion

done

Eighteen

Seventeen

Sixteen

Fourteen

and so on

can't wait

clear the way

no more hurt

no more tears

just blue skies

pristine

beaches

without you

and your

disfigured ways

grotesque character

breaking away

free

I am

one last word

gotta say

here it comes

Eighteen

Toxic Revisited

Toxic

Toxic

Some kinda 

disgusting

Poison

You are

Yapping

Bloviating

Wading

Into

Murky
Disgusting
Flood

Waters

Disdain

Cubed

Spite

You are 

full 

of it
Full of

Spite

livin' 

day by day

bathing

wallowing
stagnating

STOP

Tired of

hearing

your 

mouth
spewing

noxious

fumes
hurling

vitriol

Why don't 

you

callate

tu boca

por favor

shut it 

tight

you might

consider

taking

flight 

from

all you say, say

and do

'cause 

I'm past

tired

Yap

Yap

Yapping

Regurgitating

criticism

cyncism

all to 

a

catastrophic

crescendo

Letters after your name?

What do you have?

Just letters

full of 
Look at me!

I am

this 

that and

everything

just me

myself

and my

mouth!

Stop it already

can someone

get a word in

edgewise?

Toxicity

Weapons of mass

destruction

people's lives

 ideas

squelched 

beneath

the weight

of

your 

unrelenting

disdain

pain

cruelty

demeaning

behavior
stifling
those in your path

Humiliation

you're armed 

lock and  loaded

taking your

Hypocritical

oath

to inflict
as much harm
to whoever

you 

wish 

Funny?

Hardly

STOP!
Please stop!
Basta ya!
Leave 
and take your
toxic ways
with you!

Migraine

Migraine Headache

 Migraine

 by Maureen Ucles

I feel a headache

coming on

dizzy

I feel a headache

very strong

gotta sit

down

Light sensitivity

Lights

Prism like lights

stretching
blurring
my vision

gotta

rest

I feel a migraine

creeping in

closing my eyes

head down

leave me

be

I feel the  migraine

blaring
blaring
 it's ugly 

head

mind numbing

throbbing
throbbing
pain

migraine

I feel a migraine

taking hold

stomach upside
down

mind's wailing

when will it end?

rest calling
calling my name

slumber
beckons

This migraine

relentless
ruthless

turn down the shades

Tylenol
by the handful

eyes closed

damp cloth on

my forehead

laying supine

on my bed

Migraine

debilitating

excruciating

Migraine

in the house

behind the eyes

subsiding
maybe
possibly
but

slowly

quietly

Migraine

My Life Is A Benchmark

I wrote this last year when I was working on several benchmarks.

My Life Is A Benchmark

My life is a benchmark

Wrapped in
the brightest bland paper

Llena de numeros-numbers, numbers, number

Expectations unfulfilled?

Questions unanswered?
Right and wrong 
Wrong and write
3.5B or C or D?
Get me?

My life is a benchmark

Turn the page

C'mon and see!

Multiple choice

from A, B, C and D

I prefer

must confess

Open-ended

Not fill in the blank--

Too much of a bore

Boring

My life is a benchmark

Turn the page
Proceed with caution
if you must
proceed at your own risk

Might discover

New ideas

Some writing

Deep in my soul
annotations

 keep  

fighting

For utter survival

overcoming

situations 

situations that's

been drumming

drumming

all in my head

Got me going

movin'

groovin' 

siempre delante

no pa' atras

My life is a benchmark

Print out the page

Read some poesia

Time to engage

with my words

phrases oraciones

flowing

Lost in the moment

Never knowing

when to stop

or keep going

A benchmark

my life is

a

benchmark

pathetic

need to break free

from this benchmark

benchmark

mentality